ME


I Am beautiful I Am worth It, I Am proud of myself I Am confident I Am loved

I Love myself for all of the obstacles I have gone thru and conquered. I am the strong person I am today for all the pain, bruises, the lies that have been told. I wouldn’t be this strong willed, stubborn person if I didn’t go thru the obstacles. I would change what I went thru for who I am today.

Although I am very scared yet I will conquer my battles and Win and keep going. Because I won’t give up I won’t give in to the funnel of darkness that is not me.

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Story from a birth mother


After the day I gave you up for adoption I thought I was such a bad mom. Even a bad mom to your siblings. Now that you are an adult and we have been talking more and more and rebuilding our bond.

Hearing you tell me that I’ve always been your mother and hearing your sister tell me I’ll always be your (all 3 kids) mommy means the world to me. As you grew older I thought you would of had a hatred towards me because i didn’t keep you. I was very wrong. When you told me that I meant a lot to you made me so very happy.

You kids are my Angels no matter what. My love for you will never end nor will it be any less.

There are so many words that I can’t express. Yes there were things I wish I could of changed. Yet in the end we are still blood we will always be a family.

The memories that need to end!


How do I start? 18 years ago the abuse got worse. Covering up more of the bruises hoping that nobody can see them. And keeping my attitude happy go lucky as always. Hiding the feelings of being physically abused and also mentally abused. I may have not gotten hit as often as others but, I was still hit more than once.

The Physical abuse started the day we got married. I was his property in his eyes I was to do what he said. 1st time he hit was the first night he slept on the couch. The next morning i couldn’t walk at all I crawled to the bathroom than crawled to the living room and I felt dizzy and figured out i had a concussion. I called off work that day.

The biggest one that gives me nightmares to this day was sometime in November when I was getting ready for work and we started arguing I ended up on the floor with him on top of me strangling me and hitting me he broke my left eardrum, bruises around my neck from his hands and bruises on the left side of my face. I still ended up going to work early and calling the Georgia State Police to make a report against my husband. Right after the cops left he shows up within 5-10 min saying I was crazy and the bruises just appeared and he never touched me that I was a crazy Bitch. Told him he has to leave and go to work. I went back inside Mc Donald’s clocked like I usually do and worked my whole shift. Trying to keep my composure and not think about what happened to me. As I arrived back home my husband acted like nothing ever happened. This was one of the Many arguments we had he would even hit me after he found out I called his parents in Guatemala about the abuse.

I did get out of that marriage and filed for an uncontested divorce. Please don’t stay in an abusive relationship it’s not healthy for you. Your life is important you deserve better.

Just to say a few words of advice even if they say they are not going to do this again… Is a lie they will continue to beat you and leave out of the situation the best you can!

You need to live the life that you deserve no abuse (physically, emotionally, verbally) Do you and make the best out of life.

Good day bad times


Coming up is May 6th my grandfathers birthday (rip) And i thought it would be a good day for me. I was wrong it was the day i got married it’s supposed to be a happy day it was far from that… the day I got married was one of the many days that my Ex husband beat me. After 5 mos or so of getting hit for the smallest reasons I left. I knew that i was better than that and didn’t deserve how I was being treated. His parents did want me to go back to him, but I told them I couldn’t and he shouldn’t be treating his wife the way he did. We didn’t talk for 16 yrs he had gone back to Guatemala he apologized, but that wasn’t enough I still had the physical, and emotional pain.

We do not talk at all anymore.. Ladies and even gentlemen you do not have to stay an any type of abusive relationships. No matter how much they say they love you they don’t they need someone to control.. Trust me the pain and suffering you went thru can stop if you just walk away and let things go. Time to heal yourself and do things for you be selfish for once!! Do what makes you happy

Not quite sure


I’m not quite sure where I’m going now. Not sure on how to feel, how to react. I’m going in circles and not knowing where I’m going to end up.

It’s that scared feeling where you are unable to comprehend what is really going on.

Have I lost control of my life? Am I doing things the correct way?? Will he still love me? I am I being a good fiancĂ©? Did I do something wrong? Am I to blame for things that didn’t work out??

Why am I here? What am I doing here? What were my dreams and goals again?

Partner of a stroke survivor


People don’t see what you go thru everyday they just think your okay,

People do not see the pain that you are going thru,

The stroke Surviver doesn’t see the pain your hiding from them,

When I’m massaging you at night and your eyes are closed,

My tears are running down my cheeks and making sure that you do not see me cry.

You ask why I’m crying I don’t say a word to make you worry,

Not knowing if that is going to be the last night.

Wishing just my love for you would heal you,

Wishing that it would get back to “normal”.

Loving you is all that I know to give you and hope that I will get another day with you, my prayers every single night.

Trying to stay strong and be your strength to make sure your happy in hopes that you will never see my pain.

Staying by your side and hoping that everyday is getting better. All I want to show you is love and patience.

David Rauch, I enjoy every moment we can share together.

Make it stop


I don’t like this feeling

This feeling of loosing you

For the second time.

The tears of fear and pain keeps rolling down my face,

When you are asleep is when I cry.

We lost eachother 17 yrs ago. Im not going to loose you again.

The fear of not having you by my side. As the emotions keep going and going as im trying not to feel the pain and hurt of thinking of loosing you.

Im not ready, I just got you back we have our future in front of us to live yet.

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