Bittersweet


Never did I think that I would feel this way again. Who knew that two Jr High kids who are totally opposite would end up together. Typical teenagers the girl shy, smart, exotic (boys point of view) and the boy who was the typical boy who got in trouble in school.. From the girl stealing his hat and playing mercy with out giving into pain. To the Boy who tried to get his hat back 3xs a day or during lunch walking around on stilts. To the 1st kiss at Memorial Park, Claremont, California on 4th of July 1992. Not knowing if they would ever see eachother again. Because that was the day that when you told me that you had to move. The day when i stopped you from getting into a fight at the park and told you that it’s not worth it. Even if it was because the other kid starting to talk about me for stopping you from fighting.

25 yrs 2 days later July 6th 2017 we reunited after messaging back and forth as friends for 5 yrs. When both of our memories started coming back from Jr. High.

We were both scared and unsure of what the future would be let alone if we still loved eachother from long ago. Well Guess patience and alot of living life things came back together.

Well, YOU finally had the guts 25 odd years later decided to ask me to marry you.

This is something we have both been looking for just didn’t know that it would of been you David R. Rauch.. I love you babe thank you.

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Lost


I’m so used to just getting up and leaving. Now I’m starting to think of everything that has happened to me in the past. I’ve stopped thinking about my past. Yet things still haunt me from the rapes. Abuse from my ex husband and things that happened to me when I was younger that nobody will discuss(that it never happened).

I’m tired of the pain and the uncertainty of if this is how I’m supposed to feel.

The why’s of why did you do this to me will be left unsaid.

I’M not afraid to tell my story. About the physical abuse, the rapes, and molestation that has happened to me.

It made me who I am today a stronger woman. I can get thru all things and beat the memories. Than there are days when I can’t emotionally or physically take it.

I am me take it or leave it. You can’t change my past neither can I, yet I can change my future.

What’s your story??