Watching you


I see it in your eyes, the wishing, wanting, the being able to do things before your Strokes.

I see you talking to our neighbors I see it in your eyes the wanting to go back to work, yet knowing you can’t kills you from inside.

Your eyes glisten when you talk about old projects you worked on before the 1st stroke.

It pains me to see what you’re going thru, yet YOU’RE A SURVIVOR A STROKE SURVIVOR!!! You’re strong willed in your lifetimes you have re learned to walk 3 times take a look at the obstacles you have accomplished in your life!!!!

Now it’s time to take it 1 day at a time and cherish every moment that we can spend together!!!

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Good day bad times


Coming up is May 6th my grandfathers birthday (rip) And i thought it would be a good day for me. I was wrong it was the day i got married it’s supposed to be a happy day it was far from that… the day i got married was one of the many days that my Ex husband beat me. After 5 mos or so of getting hit for the smallest reasons I left. I knew that i was better than that and didn’t deserve how I was being treated. His parents did want me to go back to him, but I told them I couldn’t and he shouldn’t be treating his wife the way he did. We didn’t talk for 16 yrs he had gone back to Guatemala he apologized, but that wasn’t enough I still had the physical, and emotional pain.

We do not talk at all anymore.. Ladies and even gentlemen you do not have to stay an any type of abusive relationships. No matter how much they say they love you they don’t they need someone to control.. Trust me the pain and suffering you went thru can stop if you just walk away and let things go. Time to heal yourself and do things for you be selfish for once!! Do what makes you happy

Not quite sure


I’m not quite sure where I’m going now. Not sure on how to feel, how to react. I’m going in circles and not knowing where I’m going to end up.

It’s that scared feeling where you are unable to comprehend what is really going on.

Have I lost control of my life? Am I doing things the correct way?? Will he still love me? I am I being a good fiancĂ©? Did I do something wrong? Am I to blame for things that didn’t work out??

Why am I here? What am I doing here? What were my dreams and goals again?