The pain that keeps burning

I’ve never let go of the pain i went thru. From being raped, beaten, mentally abused.

All this pain just stayed inside my soul. The hatred towards others and pushing people away from me so they can hurt me. I’ll hurt them first.

But there’s a problem my heart, my heart will be what kills me, the love i have for others will be the death of me. In the End my heart will play games with my mind and that is how it will end.